Re-Invention of Stan

The only thing Rocky Balboa ever wanted to do was prove, “ [He] weren’t just another bum from the neighborhood.”

dignity |ˈdignitē|

noun ( pl. -ties)

the state or quality of being worthy of honor or respect : a man of dignity and unbending principle | the dignity of labor.

• a composed or serious manner or style : he bowed with great dignity.

• a sense of pride in oneself; self-respect : it was beneath his dignity to shout.

• a high or honorable rank or position : he promised dignities to the nobles in return for his rival’s murder.

I feel like I am Rocky Balboa at times from the first movie. Some times I indeed feel like a loser those around me tell me I have a lot going for me but in reality when your this stagnant it starts to bother you in many ways. I am trying to make this an issue of being unemployed but I think it is much deeper and bigger than that. I have increased the frequency at which I apply for jobs that I feel I would like; hell I managed get some interviews. The punches come from the torrent of no-callbacks or return e-mail correspondence.

I do feel I am on the path to employment by the month’s end, but will that be enough to end this current state of mind. While still in college I was full of hopes and dreams and post baccalaureate life isn’t easy yet I still have my dreams and ambitions no matter what a pounding they take from the reality of the real world.

With my health and fitness goals I’ve have not met them but certainly cause enough physical change it is noticed by others. No matter how many times I fail in “getting into shape” I am always better than before. The question is how many failures before one either crosses the threshold or just gives in to FAILURE. I guess that question will be answered in my lifetime and I can pass the answer on to those younger than me in the same position.

*Rant Over*

Every day, in every way, I’m getting better and better.

In short I fear and embrace the future and change. I do not know what it holds for me but I embrace it.